new shores**

when we left the place that was enforced to us as home (although in fact it never was home, and the more i look at it from the outside the more i realize the immensity of this lie and absurdy), we knew we wanted to be out there all by ourselves. we didnt want to do what society expected from us. we wanted to find out the truth. we wanted to pursue our dreams and live in the different worlds of our books that feel more real to us than anything else, more substantial, ever-changing in their meaning and unrestricted in the possibilities they offer.

now we are going to move to a place where we can unpack our bags, (yet are able to pack them back up again), start the work and perfection our skills.

what are we going to do after that? i don`t know yet. maybe we can leave this place. maybe we can go to a place far away, a place where no one has expectations of us that we don`t want to fulfill. maybe we can get onto a ship or a train. i have never seen a ship or a train come past here, but maybe one day it will.

breaking the cocoon

We lived this place out. We sucked whatever life it had to offer out of it & now we need to move on.

We also soaked up the freedom it had to offer and now that we are full with it, we can walk away with it to any place.

I believe that as soon as something has lost its life and has turned into something dead you need to leave it behind. Thats why we had to leave our village and all empty aspirations behind. What is the point of learning a common craft? Or opening a shop? Or building a house? What happens after you have achieved that? You start fading. You have reached what there was to reach and the dying process kicks in.

Savannah thinks about this just as I do. I know she does although we did not speak much in the last weeks.

Maybe spending time here was not about making steps forward, reaching something, becoming better at something, perfectioning our roles.

Maybe spending this time here was about genuinely making ourselves free, so we can pursue our dreams completely focused, pure and cleansed. Cleansed not only from the outside, but also from the inside.

At the moment, I think, we are both more at harmony with ourselves. And we are more in harmony with each other.

But now we need to go for our goal.